God Knows the Weather of My Heart

I've been thinking lately about storms and how they mirror the seasons of my life.

Some days I feel steady and strong, moving through the hours with confidence. Other days arrive, and it feels like all my motivation disappears, and I'm simply trying to make it through. It's been two years since my husband passed, and part of me thought I should be further along in my grief.

But something shifted for me the other day.

When the weather changes, I adjust what I do. I wouldn't mow the yard in the rain or plan outdoor work during a downpour. I accept the weather for what it is and move with it.

I realized my emotions work the same way. 

Some days feel like a light rain, and some days feel like a full storm in my heart. I've spent a lot of time thinking I should be doing more, but I'm learning that inner storms require the same kind of adjustment as outer ones. When grief rises like heavy clouds, I'm not failing. I'm responding to the conditions of my heart.

There are days when the storm inside is so strong that I feel almost paralyzed. I'm learning that this isn't weakness—it's part of healing. God guides me through the changing seasons outside, and He's guiding me through the changing seasons within. I don't have to pretend it's sunny when it's storming. I just have to walk with Him through whatever the day holds.

If you're struggling now, or have struggled, or will struggle someday, be kind to yourself. Adjust to the mental, emotional, physical, or spiritual weather you're experiencing, and give yourself grace.

After all, that's exactly what God does.